In My Mind

 It is hard not to think of Donald J. Trump as The Chosen One. I can think of no republican- past or present- who could do what he has done, nor what he will do. Certainly, no democrat who ever walked the earth could. It is him and only him. There is no doubt in my mind about this. He is The Chosen One.

Alright, Ferrerman, you are up to something! You are not here to praise Trump; you are always here to bury Trump. Quit fucking around and get to the point! Stop waxing pathetic!

OK. Sorry. It's just that sometimes it's hard to get started here. It flows once I get going, and I always usually know where I'm going, but getting started is half the battle. So, here goes.

Much of the world is in a depression right now. Not the 1929 kind that led to The Great Depression of the 1930's, but rather the collective sads of people with the fuckits who have just given up and struggle to get out of bed each day because they just can't anymore. My heart goes out to these people as I have been there at times too. I get it. At points in our lives there is no amount of love or well-meaning advice that can be giving to pull us out of our despair. Every person on earth has a mind of their own that does their thinking for them (usually) and each one of those minds is in their own worlds, with their own hopes, fears and thought processes. It can be very hard for your mind to listen to another mind telling you how to think and feel. Even if you suspect they are right, who are they to tell your mind what to think!? The nerve...

I'm introverted enough (most of us are) to be an observer in life, not just of myself, but of others. I'm curious of others' motivations in life. What makes them do the things they do that are often so ridiculously wrong? Why do people collectively make the same mistakes that have been documented historically to be stupid and wrong? Well, I don't want to get too deep, but each of our minds is its own world. The minds of others outside our own world certainly have an effect on ours whether we acknowledge them or not, and whether we like it or not. How we accept or react to this dictates that effect. If you think that you are complicated, think of how complicated those other motherfuckers are! Put all these minds together every damn day and you can see why the world is such a complicated mess and always has been. Maybe Ai will sort this out for us one day soon and we will all think and act as one. I don't know- is that what it's for? No one seems to know. In my mind, it's just another moneymaking scheme. I could be wrong. MY mind allows me to be wrong. I like that about me. Other minds allow that I'm wrong too. That's fair, as long as they come to the conclusion of my wrongness with intellectual honesty. Therin lies the rub. You are not always going to get that.

We don't get intellectual honesty anymore, at least not on the grand scale of media and information. We probably never did in history, but that was then and this is now. It's a given that only contemporaneous thinking counts in the moment. We can deal with history and the future later, as chores for another day. Right now, media is propaganda and public relations. A fine example is yesterday's election in Texas to see who the republican candidate for senate would be, later this year. It was typically brutal, between John Cornyn and Ken Paxton. The latter won, but not without his own party noting that he was an adulterous, duplicitous scumbag, who recently let a pedophile get away with a one-day sentence and NO time on the sex offenders list. Effectively, it was as if his crime never happened. Some money probably changed hands. Cornyn's republicans pointed that out and condemned Paxton to no avail. But that was yesterday and yesterday is gone. The King is dead, long live the King. That's politics. They will support him now because his opponent now is a democrat and an alleged vegan. Can't have that. Not in Texas.

If I don't like someone, I don't like someone. I don't think that makes me hardheaded. I think it makes me committed. Currently, a guy named Hasan Piker is being thrust upon us as either an important pundit or the worst thing to come down the pike for democrats- ever. One or the other. I'm not sure. I just know I don't care and it is not important to me that I do care. He's a pundit. That's no better than being a "social media influencer". It's probably the same thing! It's not a real job. A real job is slaving over a hot bar all night or over a hot warehouse all day, both of which I've done, and done quite well. 

The world tells us how to think every damn day. There's no escaping it. You can only deal with it as your mind allows you to deal with it. For fucks sake though people, if a candidate or a POTUS is so obviously wrong about life and simply cannot get on board with the basics, fuck 'em! Don't 'big picture' these things. If the big picture in your mind allows for a president to be a smelly, greedy raper of children, as long as he tells you his intent is to make your country great again, you need to get a new mind! You've lost yours. If you haven't noticed he has lost his, you are as nuts as he is. Your mind will never grow if it stops short of critical thinking. I joke that Right v. Wrong was overturned by this John Robert's Supreme Court, but I think it's true. Every damn day we seem to go further into the kaleidoscopic looking glass of the upside-down and it becomes normal to be so abnormal. No one expects you or I to be right all the time, but don't accept others being wrong. Politics is right and wrong. Possibly well-meaning pundits say, "Talk to the other side so as to better understand them". Fuck that. If your side is against feeding hungry children or in favor of genocide, I already understand you and you are an asshole. If you think I'm an asshole for wanting to feed children or protect a people from genocide- again- fuck you. There is no agreeing to disagree there. Come on now...

The world seems chockful of depressed persons with the fuckits who seem to have stopped caring about themselves or others. They are saying, "Let's do something even if it's wrong!" I've always hated that desperate train of thought. It belongs still in bed at noon on a Monday, not as public policy. Isn't it just insane that this regime has appealed to the worst our society has to offer in an effort to achieve what they perceive as "the best"? There has got to be something wrong with that thinking. But maybe it's just me...